What Is She DOING?!?!?

Don’t lie, I know you’re thinking it, lol. I’m not even sure I should tell you. Do you think you can handle it? Huh? Do you?

The truth is, I’m just being a jackass. If you’ve been keeping track, you’ve probably seen the site change and change and change back over the last couple of weeks. I was playing around with some new ideas, wanted to get a fresh look for 2012. It is, after all, the year that the world is supposed to end (FYI, I’m TOTALLY not buying that hocus pocus, real talk). But jokes aside, I DID want to shake things up and I MIGHT not be finished yet . We’ll see. That’s my new favorite thing to say.

Went kind of retro with the title. I know some of you might recognize that from, what, ’09? Something like that. I don’t remember when I changed it. That was definitely on purpose. I want to bring the focus back to the spiritual from the political. The political is just pissing me off beyond belief nowadays. Straight up, I’m sitting in an executive desk chair feeling nothing like a CEO. Because CEOs have money to make big changes and I barely have the money right now to dream of them. This fucking SOPA/PIPA thing really clinched it. I don’t support that legislation, obviously. I’ve said before that copyright violations are unfortunate when they deprive artists of money. At the same time, there has to be a way to protect intellectual property without being a douche and policing everyone’s Internet access. And to be honest, this whole thing is more about Americans’ intellectual property rights than anyone else’s. The entire world is banding together to save the American economy from foreign competitors. Very touching. But this wasn’t supposed to be political, so I’ll cut it out.

I just wrote a short story about someone afraid of her own mortality and it got me thinking about my own. When I was younger, I was all about shaking up the system, but now it’s really hard to keep caring. Not in a “I’m just gonna enjoy the small comforts” kind of way, but in a “Let me just be as good as I can to the people I meet and write as much motivating shit as I can churn out” type of deal.  I’m starting to believe that small kindnesses can have a ripple effect and be just as healing for the world as angry revolutions. One isn’t always better than the other, of course. You need to see what’s appropriate for any given case. I just think we should balance out the two for optimal results. Ew. I sound like a scientist. Shame on me.

I’m going to bed now, because I have nothing more of value to contribute tonight. If you have the same taste in hip hop as me, watch this, it’s interesting: